Seven

There’s an extremely powerful scene in a certain movie/book, that is rather famous for various reasons.

Set in a dining room/kitchen, two people have a relationship that is… different, more involved, more complicated than anything I’ve ever witnessed or heard of.

This both terrified and fascinated me. This is the kind of relationship that intrigues me. Beautiful and violent, two people looking into each others souls. Never able to understand one another, but never giving up, either. One person living on the hope and determination that the other is somebody else. The other not thinking, her mind cloudy and corrupted.

It is a truly amazing scene, I crave it most days, I crave to join them.

I think this is the lowest I have felt in a while, now. Although, last Friday was… horrendous. I didn’t think I’d make it through the night, let alone the weekend. But I was ok on Saturday.

I was so scared afterwards, I felt so alone. I didn’t feel anything at the time, though. It scares me now.

And I keep slipping into it more and more often. Kind of dead-eyed, do you know that feeling?

I don’t think I’m coping very well…

This entry was written on August 9, 2007 by Mandy. It is about/includes mentions of love. You can leave a comment, or trackback from your own site.